dear r : like

dear r:

loving you was like
jumping off a bridge.

i was falling into it
falling forward
falling down
falling fast
falling head over
falling to my death
falling for you
falling in love.

it was a rush
it was real
it was painful
it was remarkable
it was confusing
it was simple
it was such a
beautiful mistake.

leaving you was like
swimming to the edge.

to saving grace
to letting go
to beginnings
to newness
to who i am

i didn’t fall for you.
you tripped me.

for my body
for my sex
for my heart
for my soul
for my thoughts
for my voice

i chose to love you
my mistake. my bad.

Love, JANEisnotplain 7.23.10