dear r: half-glad

dear r: half-glad


dear r:

this morning means : i am alone.
i on one side of the world, you
and her inches or forever away

how fragile everything seems when i am alone
sitting on my bed leaning onto the page and thinking
about how last december our footprints gave the snow
a history which remained until we/they disappeared.

what matters now is how the windows
cut the sky into different squares of light
as i am lying on the couch half-sick, half-glad.

JANEisnotplain 12.31.08

dear r: 12.9.08

12.9.08


dear r:

our fingers intertwined across the miles
you breathed hot on my cheek,
your smile waning.

you ate apples and let the
cores fall at your feet
you saw tears in my eyes and
you reflected them in yours

my eyes are dark but
your memory still hangs about
my silhouette like sharp laughter


JANEisnotplain 12.9.08

dear r: mistakes

dear r :mistakes



dear r:


i made several mistakes.
some of the music slipped.


JANEisnotplain 12.09.08

dear r: adjusting

dear r: adjusting

dear r:

clouds and sun,
wind and rain.
i am slowly adjusting.
there is so much to gain.

JANEisnotplain 12.06.08

dear r: 12.04.08

dear r: 12.04.08


dear r,

on an impulse i
gave you my heart
knowing you might
tear it apart.

i felt pain creeping
long before this but
i needed a new life,
a sort of liberation.

it will take time but
soon i will heal and
you will be all but
a memory.

JANEisnotplain 12.4.08