DEAR R PROJECT: UNTITILED 12.17.06

dear r,

the hardest phrases use the shortest words.
they tie up my tongue with such delicately strong fingers
that it doesn’t even hurt when i speak.
and i am just a jumbled catastrophe,
warbling like a bird. you should just leave me
right where i stand with the sun on my shoulder
like the warmth of embarrassment
and all because i would like to say
i love you.



copyright JANEisnotplain 12.17.06

DEAR R PROJECT: SOLID

solid

dear r,

sometimes i see you when i’m not even looking.
sometimes i imagine i am wearing you in my running shoes
and we are kissing the pavement together
because we have landed on solid ground.

copyright JANEisnotplain ’12.06

DEAR R PROJECT: I WANT YOU

i want you


dear r,


i want you
(to narrate)
[my waking]

i want you
(to narrate)
[my breaths]


i want you
(to narrate)
[my coffee]


i want you
(to narrate)
[my mornings]

i want you
(to narrate)
[my breakfast]

i want you
(to narrate)
[my laughs]

i want you
(to narrate)
[my shower]

i want you
(to narrate)
[my dressing]

i want you
(to narrate)
[my song]

i want you
(to narrate)
[my dreams]

i want you to-

i choose you to-
i choose you-

too.


copyright JANEisnotplain 11.06

DEAR R PROJECT: PARTS

PARTS


dear r,


you found me

the part of me
that i know little about
that can speak to you

the part of me
that you want
that seems to know who i am

the part of me
that will challenge who i was
that who that i will become

the part of me
that i can be proud of
that i want to be yours

that part of me
that
wants
you


love,

copyright JANEisnotplain 11.06

DEAR R PROJECT: STRAWBERRY KISSES FOR R

strawberry kisses for r


dear r,

i feel like there is a roadblock in my head
like the words are on the other side
but i can’t get close enough to see what they say
because of the blurry lights and bright sounds

but don’t worry sweetheart
the patience that i wear today
like my favorite old t-shirt that’s
worn at the neck line from repeated use
will keep us safe from the cold

i hope that the smile that
just got lost in the camera flash
was one of comfort and understanding
because the kiss that i’m about to offer
will taste like strawberry flavored water

love,

copyright JANEisnotplain 8/06

DEAR R PROJECT: 11.8.06

untitled 11.8.06

dear r,

kiss me. press your lips up against my wall.
hold my wrists. pin me. hold me.
tell me i’ll get what’s good for me.
and then look into my eyes.
and sing to me.
and kill me.
let me die.
but never let me go.





copyright JANEisnotplain 11/06

DEAR R PROJECT: SURPRISE

surprise

dear r,


i wasn’t always looking, you know
i didn’t always know the way
your hands would feel holding mine
i wasn’t always searching for your lips
i cant justify how i managed to find
what i didn’t even think could be real
i don’t how i knew that
it is your fingertips i need
like destiny against my skin
but even if i wasn’t looking,
and i know i wasn’t
i’m glad i found you

JANEisnotplain’06